My family has been pretty supportive so far, though they're upset. I've just been keeping on keeping on, looking for pretty much any kind of work, throwing out things that remind me of the dream that almost was, crying at bad moments, etc., etc., etc.
My grandmother always said to "keep on going," and so for the sake of her memory I will. It's not fun right now, though.
Well, it looks as if I might be moving to get a new job. My mother really came through for me on this one, and I'm grateful to her. It's good for one's character to have to start over from scratch, even though it's daunting and kind of sad. God give me strength!
A long time ago I used to be in favor of abortion on demand, but now I understand that to terminate an unborn baby's life is murder. A young woman I worked with not too long ago helped me to confirm this change in opinion. She has quite a few kids, each by a different father, and became pregnant again by a man she was "thinking about" marrying. (It didn't work out.) She talked quite a bit - and quite casually - about abortion, and when I gently suggested that she might want to adopt the baby out if she didn't want another child to raise, she said that she could never carry a child for all those months and then let it go. I didn't get into a quarrel with her, but I felt like asking, "Oh, so you could kill the innocent baby you conceived, but you couldn't say goodbye to it?" The kids she has don't even get good mendical care. She kept the poor baby in the end, but I am not filled with high hopes for the child's future with a mother like that and no father worth the name, either.
Solution?
It's called abstinence, people. It's actually quite easy. We aren't animals.
I also love my mandolin, for I really enjoy both making and hearing many types of music, but I could live without it better than I could live without my computer!!!!!!!!
I started my new job as an English instructor at a local community college yesterday. I was so nervous, but I got through it, and I hope that the experience will trend upwards from here.
